Tag: prompt-based creative writing

Forget It


It had been years, but she still couldn’t forget it. The awkward feeling she had inside when they said goodbye. They’d only been together a few months, but it felt like forever.

Their meeting at a show both their bands had played was unnervingly comfortable, as if their souls already knew one another, and it was actually only the bodies meeting for the first time. Usually very shy, she was instantly at ease with him. They had a rapport and camaraderie she normally only had with lifelong friends. They slept together the first chance they could, and that was natural too.

They explored the huge city together; shopping in cheap dollar stores for food, drinking beer to pass the hot summer days, and watching bands play in bars. He had an avocado tree that extended over the roof of his house, so they would climb out the kitchen window to pick them. Sometimes they would drink and talk by the avocado tree on the roof, or play acoustic guitars to pass the time.

She was in love with him in minutes, but couldn’t tell him so, because she didn’t have the right. In any other situation, she wouldn’t have let him walk away, she would have held on and never let go, but he was already spoken for. He was taken. And she couldn’t take him away from his girlfriend. His girlfriend was younger, and so obviously naïve for trusting him. She could tell from the way he described her that she was somewhat weak emotionally, and sheltered. Their break-up would break her.

Because his girlfriend lived across the country, she assumed it would be a matter of time before the distance ended the relationship, the way distance almost always does. It was that pesky almost that would come back to bite her in the ass.

She would lie next to him in bed, silently listening to them talk on the phone, and watching him leave the apartment to argue with her, but every time they seemed near the break-up she assumed was inevitable, things would return to normal.

She was soon humiliated to find herself playing the other woman to a faceless girl in another state. She knew she could do better – she knew she deserved better – but she kept hoping that something would change. Until it did, she didn’t have the right to love him. She wouldn’t allow herself to say it. But she felt it.

She knew it was his decision to make, it was his choice, and it hurt more than anything to think that she wouldn’t be chosen. When he verbally acknowledged this choice during a pregnancy scare by saying, “Well if you are, I guess we’ll start thinking up names. And I guess I’ll have to tell her it’s over,” it sickened her that he was so nonchalant. That he was too cowardly to follow his heart, and would allow his destiny to be determined by biology.

As time passed, she became angry about being second choice, about being a substitute stand-in for the real thing, because he wasn’t that to her. He was the real thing. And she was angry because she believed in the goodness of her own heart. She knew she was not second best to anyone. She was the real thing too. She deserved better than second choice status.

Slowly becoming moody and sullen, she grew resentful that the relationship couldn’t progress further than the stunted and deformed bastardization of love it had become. She knew that if it had started the right way, if there were no secrets, no constraints, and no significant others, it could have been beautiful. It never had a chance. She never had a chance.

Pride, or fear, or futility kept her from ever telling him that she loved him. But she did. She wasn’t supposed to love him, and she wasn’t allowed to love him, but she loved him anyway.

She walked away from him forever after they had awkwardly, ridiculously hugged one last time; as if a hug could somehow sum up everything they’d shared.

She felt so confused and conflicted. She wanted to tell him she loved him, and please don’t leave me here alone in this huge city, and please don’t leave me here alone on this empty street, and please don’t leave me here alone, and please don’t leave me.

But instead, she walked away quickly so he wouldn’t see the tears running down her face, making the buildings blurry and the palm trees shimmer.

A month later he emailed her to tell her he’d moved back to where his girlfriend lived. They were engaged to be married, he told her. She didn’t answer.

He was confused when she didn’t email him back, to congratulate him, and emailed her to ask if something was wrong. She told him that it was hard to feel like celebrating his news of engagement when he’d been fucking her behind the oblivious back of his bride-to-be a month ago.

He stopped sending emails.

She was still trying to forget it.



She liked to go for walks in the forest near her house in the country.

She also spent time playing in the barn where her brown and white spotted horse sought shelter from bad weather.

The barn was full of animal stalls no longer used, and an upper loft where nobody could see her, reached by a ladder made of wood. When she unlatched and swung open the small window in the upper center of the barn-top, she could see for miles across the green countryside.

Her favorite hiding place was in the hay barn, an outbuilding made of metal, and full of fescue cut from fields adjacent the farm. She was almost a teenager, and strong enough now to move the hay bales around, making secret rooms and forts hidden from the entrance. Sometimes she would bring a book, and quietly read by herself for hours in a cave made of hay.

Living so far away from civilization had caused her to grow comfortable with her silent, solo self. She no longer had the desire to be around other kids or people. Whether this was a form of learned helplessness – a coping mechanism to deal with forced solitude – or a natural preference, she was no longer certain. But she was okay with herself, by herself. It was peaceful, and nobody hurt her when she was alone.

Today she walked down the path that led into the forest. She loved it in the forest; the sounds of squirrels scratching around in the trees, and birds singing careless songs. She would often climb up into a favorite tree and watch nature making music all around her.

There was a dump in the forest, used by farmers from all around, where she would sometimes ferret around, looking for other people’s treasures. It was there she found the seventies copy of The Joy of Sex, full of hairy, hippie-looking people in embarrassing poses that repulsed her. She hoped that when her time for romance finally arrived, it would look nothing like the pictures contained in that moldy old book.

Sometimes she would find the tracks of what were probably large dogs, that she liked to tell herself were from mountain lions, if only to make the peaceful forest feel dangerous and exciting for a moment. She wondered what she would do if she ever encountered a big cat on one of her nature walks.

Today she was feeling sleepy. The late afternoon air was thick and syrupy. The sun was bright, the stream she walked along was trickling quietly, and the warmth of the summer day made her eyes grow heavy. Rather than go all the way back to the house to nap, she decided to lie down in a patch of soft clover she spotted underneath some trees.

She stared at the clouds for a few minutes before drifting off to sleep.

She was startled out of sleep by what felt like claws on her legs. Terrified, she opened her eyes to see what it might be.

Standing on her legs was a wild rabbit.

Agouti brown, with glossy, dark eyes, the rabbit stared back at her in surprise. She held very still, so as not to frighten the small creature, as they looked at each other silently for a moment.

Deciding she was no threat, the rabbit casually hopped off of her legs and continued munching clover nearby.

She looked back up at the sky, feeling blessed and happy to be alive, quietly existing among other animals like herself.

She was not alone.



She walked across the dimly lit kitchen to pour herself another cup of coffee. Cream only, to make it less intense – she didn’t like it sweet. She wondered why other people wanted sugary dessert coffee for breakfast; how they could tolerate the stunning first-thing smack to the face of sweetness that she couldn’t.

He continued the argument as he filled his to-go cup. “It’s only logical that it should be that way.” A miniature tornado of steam steam swirled around his hands while he talked.

“Why does everything in life have to be logical?” she asked scornfully. “Where is the room for mystery and magic in your world? It doesn’t always have to make sense.”

He screwed the top onto the portable stainless steel mug, and gathered his things together to leave. The car keys jingled merrily in a way that annoyed her.

“Honey, I work in forensics. Logic and sense catch the bad guys. You want us to catch the bad guys, don’t you? The bad guys don’t believe in magic either. The bad guys want to crush your magic.” He smacked one fist onto the flattened palm of the other hand. He made the fist explode as it hit, fluttering his fingers in the air like fireworks.

Unimpressed by his display of hand magic, she stared at him sullenly, leaning against the sparkling granite countertop.

He smirked at her. “You spent your childhood building little stick and leaf houses for imaginary fairies in the woods, but I played cops and robbers. You want to play with good, but I want to protect good from evil.”

She narrowed her eyes and sighed in frustration. He wasn’t understanding her brain, as usual.

“Maybe the bad guys became bad guys because they didn’t believe in magic and fairies in the woods,” she said. “And maybe everything you see that can be explained by logic and sense wouldn’t exist if it weren’t for magic. Why are we even here? You can’t answer that question with logic and sense. It’s the why that makes everything magic.”

She took a deep breath, and then a sip of the hot coffee, enjoying the way it burned her upper lip. Pain always made her feel alive.

He refused to be baited into further existential discussion. Rolling his eyes skyward, he opened the door to head to the car. The sunrise glowed orange and pink into the kitchen, temporarily setting her thin white nightgown on fire.

“Love you. Have a good day talking to your fairies, dear. Put in a good word for me with the angels.” He closed the door behind himself.

She grabbed the dishtowel from its hanging place, and threw it at the door as hard as she could.

The Book of Lies


He had a collection of guns underneath his bed. They were casually stored there, the way one might store useless winter sweaters over a hot summer. I kept clothes under my bed, and he kept… guns.

I didn’t really know how to feel about the guns. We didn’t have children in the house, so it wasn’t a safety issue. It just seemed kind of intense and odd to sleep over a herd of guns; to fuck over the guns; to watch sitcoms on the television in bed, while laughing above the pile of guns.

The guns languished beneath us the entire year we dated, listening to our arguments, sex and snores, waiting for their moment in the sun.

The biggest gun was an SKS rifle. He took me to some land on his parents’ farm one afternoon, and let me shoot the SKS. It kicked back into me with a force I’d never felt when I shot guns on my own parents’ farm.

I didn’t like the way it felt. The SKS took the usual video game tomfoolery of smaller guns into the realm of certain death and destruction. It felt ominous. Apocalyptic.

He was hung up on power. He could never have enough power. He was a computer hacker who worked a straight job safeguarding the city’s computer system from other hackers. He referred to himself more than once as the Dark Horse.

He was also very secretive, and his browser history showed young girl porn websites I didn’t even want to begin to understand. His poorly hidden dresser drawer porn showed rape scenes with girls tied up by groups of men. It was more than disturbing.

I ran into an old friend at a local rock show who visibly blanched when I mentioned that I was dating this guy. He pulled me aside to talk about him.

“You know he worships Satan, right?”

“Ha ha, very funny,” I said dryly, assuming this person was exaggerating for effect.

“No, really, he worships the devil. I’m not kidding around. He’s totally into all of that black magic bullshit. Ask him.”

I assumed this person was just the victim of rumors gone wild. People see a guy who dresses in black, and they assume things like this because they need to categorize and label things they don’t understand. My boyfriend had never mentioned this to me before, so I did an inner eye-roll and dismissed what my friend in the bar had said. Mostly.

Eventually it started to nag at me. Yes, it seemed like a pretty big secret to keep from the person you were dating. But what kept making me wonder were the other dark secrets. The information my friend had shared made me uneasy. The boyfriend was obsessed with power, and the idea that he might play around with witchcraft and alternative philosophies to make himself feel mysterious wasn’t beyond comprehension.

But a Satanist? It made me cringe in embarrassment for him to think about it. It was so trite to dress in black and cast “spells” on the people you dislike. So childish. He was in his mid-twenties, for Chrissake. Surely he was past that high school-ish phase of rebellion?

I waited until he was taking a shower one day, and searched through his closet to see if I would find anything. The shower was downstairs, so this afforded me fifteen minutes of time alone.

Hurrying, I dug into the packed closet, scooting clothing, board games and boots aside. I didn’t know what I was hoping to find, but I knew that whatever it might be, it would be in the back.

Buried there under some sweaters, perhaps the sweaters displaced by the collection of guns under the bed, was a stack of books. Many of them were by a man named Aleister Crowley. There were books about black magic, rituals, the occult, voodoo, and ceremonial spells. I couldn’t believe it. My friend in the bar had been telling the truth.

I quickly looked through the books, then hid them back where I found them before he came back up the stairs from the shower.

The books were creepy, but what bothered me the most was the realization that I was being intimate with a complete stranger. I had no idea who this person was, or of what he was capable.

I’m not at all religious, and would have laughed along with him if he’d confessed that he’d dabbled in such things in his youth, because we’ve all done stupid things.

But I was haunted by this discovery, because what I really discovered was that I would have sex with someone I didn’t know very well.

I discovered that I was so superficial I would date someone who hid ugly things like rape porn and black magic spell books.

I discovered that I was shallow enough to be with someone completely pathetic, simply because it was better than being alone.

That was when the realization finally hit me that it wasn’t better than being alone at all. Because I was already alone the whole time. He wasn’t sharing himself with me in any way, and never would.

The incident completely changed the way I viewed him, and the way I viewed myself. I broke up with him soon thereafter.



He kept her trapped inside the winter of his life like a frozen flower.

He gave her no happy sunshine, no soul-quenching water, and no rich, nurturing soil in which she might grow. Instead, he made certain she would never thrive in the cold, hard, unbreakable ground of his disapproval.

He admitted this to her openly, that he kept her poor and unhappy so she would find the idea of life without him, the idea of life not-on-his-terms too daunting to try. He kept her broken, so she’d never feel whole and strong enough to run away.

So she prayed for warmth, wondering on the shortest, darkest days if joy would ever come back into her life. She began to question whether or not it had ever been there in the first place. She had forgotten what it felt like.

That harsh season, she learned that alone and lonely don’t always go hand-in-hand. Sometimes the loneliest one can ever be is in the arms of someone who isn’t really there. And sometimes when somebody says they’ve given you their love, they have actually given you nothing but empty words in the shape of a heart.

She continued to beg him for scraps of kindness, like a dog in a restaurant alley. He moved further away with every desperate plea she made. The unwanted mongrel of her weakness only filled him with disdain.

Please give me flowers, she would ask, wanting to feel appreciated.

Annoyed with her requests, he once brought home grocery store flowers, and tossed them at her in disgust.

“Here are the flowers you wanted so badly,” he sneered.

That really wasn’t what she meant.

He never understood.

What she really meant was please approve of me, in the way my father never did, and please genuinely care about me. Please want to take care of me, even though I can take care of myself. And even though I’ve proven I can live on nothing, give me something, simply because you want to, and not because you have to.

Stop making me feel like the afterthought I have been for every single person in my entire sad life.

Make me the first thing you think about every day.

She waited patiently through the solstice of her pain, life standing still and afraid to move, until one day she found the sun. The ice melted off her petals and she felt strong, like she could grow again.

She was finally ready to value herself in the way he never would. She finally knew her own worth. She was ready to leave.

It was springtime.



Key twisting in the lock, she opened the door to the apartment they shared and flipped on the overhead light. The intense white blast turned the room into a washed-out, stark dwelling. She shivered in the cold and closed the front door, heading for the thermostat to turn it up a few degrees. He was always so much warmer than she was, and their temperature-of-the-heater battles were legendary.

It had been a long day at the restaurant, and her legs were killing her. Business was slow, and all of the standing around made her knees and feet ache so much more than a busy day spent briskly walking. Her tips were equally painful, and all she wanted to do was to put on her comfortable clothes, grab a beer, and settle down with him in front of the television.

She wondered why he was not yet home. She was certain he got off work earlier than she did today. They’d even discussed it that morning as they showered and got ready to go earn the money that paid the rent on their place.

She got undressed, blissfully removing the bra that bit relentlessly into her chest, and changing into the loose cotton yoga pants she tended to wear around the house with a T-shirt. She sauntered into the living room and sat down on the couch. As she reached for the remote control to turn on the television, she noticed a photo tucked underneath it, obviously intended to be found.

Studying the image of ice-covered trees in a snowy landscape, she thought about the peaceful world inside the picture. She wondered what it would be like to live in a house alone there, all by herself, with nobody else around to argue about bills, and ridiculous little pointless things like turning the thermostat up too high in the wintertime.

She flipped the photograph over to find writing on the back. It was a note from him, ballpoint pen-inked in his messy handwriting.

“In your silence, I hear the vitriol you’d like to shout.

In your absence, I learn everything you’re not about.

I thought you gave me something whole and real and true.

But everything you are is wrong and broken.

And you thought you told me something new, but you were wrong.

Sometimes the loudest words are unspoken.”

She gasped and dropped the picture on the coffee table. Standing, shaking, she walked quickly into the bedroom and pulled open all of the dresser drawers. His clothes were gone. She ran to the bathroom to find his toothbrush and toiletries missing as well.

He was gone. She walked around the apartment in a daze, bereft and frightened. She didn’t know how she was going to pay the rent. She didn’t know how she was going to sleep that night. She didn’t know how she was going to go to work in the morning.

She walked to the refrigerator for a beer.

This Place Gets Kind of Empty


She remembered being a shy, quiet little girl, browsing in the mom and pop record store with her older brother, who was a huge music buff. He especially loved vinyl, and this particular music shop had a large selection of used records. He would wander away to peruse the bins while she explored the store, entertaining herself by thumbing through the CDs and playing with the knickknacks for sale.

She found herself entranced by the artwork on the fronts of the albums. Sometimes an artist would feature a photo of themselves or their band, and those were interesting for a second, but her favorites were the CDs designed like tiny, colorful works of art, with paintings that told a story. She wondered how one might come to have a career in the field of musical artistry.

She paused to study the plastic key chains the store was hoping to sell as impulse purchases, by the presently empty front of the store. They were shaped like aliens, and they glowed in the dark. Their large, hollow eyes stared back at her, and their hands were raised in spooky extraterrestrial greetings.

There was nobody else around, and the man who had been following her around the store (who thought she didn’t notice him) finally decided to come over to talk to her. She thought it was odd, an adult wanting so strongly to speak to an eight-year-old girl, but people were odd. There was a lady a few houses down from her own who chased kids out of her yard by throwing figs from her fig trees at them, and that was pretty odd too, but nobody seemed very bothered by her.

He smiled at her, catching her eye as he’d hoped, opening up the conversation. As she held onto the plastic yellow-green alien, and turned it over in her hand, he asked her if she liked aliens.

She hadn’t really thought about it before that moment. She supposed she liked them okay. “Sure,” she replied.

“What do you think aliens eat?” he asked.

She thought about this for a minute. Never having thought much about aliens at all before this moment, she tried to imagine what they would serve for dinner.

A starry sky popped into her head, and a spaceship. She pictured the spaceship flying through the galaxy, and wondered what would be out there in the great beyond for aliens to farm for sustenance.

“Clouds,” she answered. “I think aliens eat clouds.”

He smiled at her again. “I think you’re probably right about that, sweetie. What’s your name?”

She hesitated to say anything more. He had moved closer and was now looking at her intensely. It had started to make her uncomfortable. “I’d better go find my brother. He’s probably wondering where I am.” She scanned the store, trying to find him quickly.

“I could buy you that alien key chain if you’d like it. If aliens eat clouds, do little girls eat candy? I have candy in my car outside,” he said, pointing to a battered, old beige car she could see parked outside through the storefront window. He grinned widely, trying to be playful, but all she saw was teeth. Rows of big white teeth. She looked up to meet his eyes. His eyes weren’t smiling anymore.

She turned, shaking his hand off her arm as she ran to the back of the large building, quickly spotting her brother browsing near a wall. She ran to him, frightened and babbling about the man with the teeth and the clouds and the aliens.

He rolled his eyes and told her to stop being so dramatic. Aliens didn’t have big teeth, stupid. She tried to explain what she meant, but he was tired of listening to her nonsense, and walked away to pay for the records he’d found that day. He couldn’t wait to get home and listen to the old vinyl by the band The Church that he’d found. What a score. He loved their song, “Under the Milky Way” and couldn’t wait to hear it come to life on his vintage record player.

She stayed close behind him for the rest of their time shopping, and for the walk home. The man was gone from the front area of the store where she’d held the plastic alien, and the car he’d pointed to – the car with the candy – was gone when they stepped outside. She almost wondered if she’d made up the entire incident. She felt ashamed for being unkind to an old man who was probably just trying to be nice, and crazy for deeming a friendly smile evil.

Years later, sitting in her house at the top of the stairs, alone on the hill (except for her sleeping dog), she looked out her window, and remembered the incident. Over the years, she had learned to trust her own instincts, and knew the man was most likely a lecherous molester, at best. She congratulated her eight-year-old self for having the guts to act on a strong feeling.

As she stared up at the starry sky, imagining that she could feel the planet slowly turning, she once again visualized the aliens eating clouds for dinner. A whole family of aliens bellied up to a celestial table, passing around the cloud loaf and mashed clouds, with big glasses of cloud juice on the side.

And she smiled.



The word idyllic.

Tones On Tail.

The Replacements.


Cocteau Twins.

Anything argyle.


Hardwood floors.


Horn-rimmed glasses.

Khaki shorts.

Pixie haircuts on women.

Boulevard beers.

All of these things reminded her of him.

And honeysuckle.

Because he first explained honeysuckle to her when they were in the process of ending it all, during the long, drawn-out months post-breakup full of lunches eaten together under the guise of maintaining the friendship. When they would talk about whom they were dating, even mock the sexual style of those poor dumb bastards and oblivious girls who all thought they were the only ones.

And then, every week, after their friendship-maintaining lunch, they would have sex. It was always better than the sex they were having with the new people in their lives, because sex with someone gets better after years of practice together, but they remained apart until next time nonetheless. Dating. Single. Free. Lonely. Not lonely. Happy. Not happy. Figuring it out. Not figuring it out. Both floating lost in the weird in-between relationship atmosphere, on and off at the same time. Casually seeing other people, but reconnecting to see each other every week. Too afraid to completely let go.

She was still haunted by the things he told her about the girls he was dating. She remembered the one he told her about who wouldn’t take off her shirt during sex because her last boyfriend made her feel bad about her breasts, made her feel ugly. She still felt sad for that girl. She remembered his comments about the nipples of the other one he was seeing, the one who had three kids. He asked her what awful thing happened to women’s nipples when they breastfed babies to make them look that way, so rubbery and weird. He confessed that he couldn’t fuck the other one he was seeing because too many men she’d slept with came over to say hi when they were in public, making her seem dirty and used up.

She wondered what horrible things he told the new girls in his life about her. She hoped she was at least described as good in bed, since that seemed to be all she had left to offer him.

Once, while they were fucking loudly in his bedroom, a girl he was dating left him a bouquet of flowers by the back door of his house. They found the flowers on the way out of the house, as he was walking her out. It made her feel like the other woman, even though they’d dated for five years before the breakup. She didn’t like the feeling.

It was during one of these end-of-relationship moments, as they stood winding down the batteries on their love, that he mentioned the honeysuckle growing on the side of his house. He was walking her to her car. She was dirty from the sex. She wanted to get back to her apartment and shower. She felt dirty in her heart, too. She didn’t think the shower would help. She knew they wouldn’t meet again for a week. She had a date with another guy that night. He had a date with another girl.

He asked her if she’d ever tried honeysuckle, and she didn’t know what he meant. She gave him a puzzled look.

“You haven’t? Well, here’s what you do. Pluck a flower. Pull the sweet part out of the middle. And suck on it.”

Afterward, he discarded the dried up flower husk.

She wouldn’t realize until years later, staring at honeysuckle flowers with nostalgia washing sadly over her, that the moment had been the perfect metaphor for the end of their relationship. That together they were sucking every last bit of sweetness out of it and throwing away the empty shell.



I’m sitting in my grandma’s back room, the room where she keeps all of Grandpa’s junk. He goes to the swap meet every week where he sells and buys junk. I saw it once. It was like a big parking lot full of garbage piles and broken things. He thinks he makes a living at it, but Mom and Grandma make fun of him behind his back because they really know he just likes to buy crap. So now the back room is full of gross crap and the carpet is all brown. I feel kind of dirty every time I play in there, but it’s more exciting than hanging out with the grown-ups, so that’s where I sit a lot of the time. All of my uncles’ old toys and books are back here too, inside the cabinets, so that helps.

Right now there is a monkey in a small cage that is hanging from the ceiling by a chain. I don’t know what Grandpa traded to get it. It screams in a high-pitched voice that hurts my ears whenever it gets excited, and makes it hard for me to watch the Mutual of Omaha animal show I love on the big television below. Mom told me not to touch the monkey because if it bites me, I could get infected. I don’t want to touch the screaming monkey, so she doesn’t have to worry. I just wish it would shut up. It can scream during stupid boring Lawrence Welk all it wants, but I want it to be quiet during my show about the Wild Kingdom. I kind of want to yell, “Shut up, monkey!” but that feels mean.

Sometimes my great-grandma sits in the kitchen screaming things louder than the monkey. She only talks in German so I don’t understand her, and she scares me because she looks all gnarled and hunched over like a troll in that chair. Her cane is bumpy like she pulled off one of the arms of those scary grabbing trees in the Wizard of Oz and I’m scared of her cane too. I wish Grandma would move the good cereal out here in the back crap room so I would never have to go into the kitchen again. I have to walk past Great-Grandma Mueller to get to the bathroom, and I swear she tries to hit me with her cane, even if I squish up against the wall really hard, so sometimes I go outside and pee in the backyard instead. Don’t tell anyone.

Grandma has a pet turtle in the backyard. I learned in the third grade this year during science that it’s really called a tortoise because it’s land-dwelling and not water-dwelling, but I don’t care. I still like to call it a turtle. I like to watch it eat lettuce. It chews like a dinosaur, like one of the herbivore Brontosauruses and not like a meat-eating T. Rex. It stands under the orange trees with the magic protecting white paint around the bottoms and chews the lettuce while I pretend I’m looking at a scene from dinosaur times.

There’s a metal trash can in the backyard, under the patio shade part, and it has a sticker on it with a curse. It was a Do Not Litter sticker that used to say: “Pitch in!” but one of my nasty uncles changed the ‘P’ to a ‘B’ and I’m not supposed to say that word unless I’m talking about a female dog, which makes it okay. But I’m not, so I can’t say it out loud right now.

The curse trash can is next to a white metal shed that I can’t go in because of the Black Widow spiders. If they bite you, you can die, so you have to be really careful about not going in sheds here.

I’m going to go back inside and watch my animal show now. If they do a show about monkeys, I’m going to use my imagination to pretend that there is a way for me to magically put Grandpa’s screaming monkey into the television through the screen like a window, and send him back the land he came from. Maybe if he can talk to other monkeys and feel like somebody is listening to him and like somebody understands what he’s saying, he’ll stop screaming so much. Maybe then he’d be quiet like me.